- Wed Sep 07, 2005 9:27 am
#106
I have just returned from the most amazing visit to the UK to see my parents. Within hours of me being home, my Mum said she had her little girl back. This was just because of how I was being - chatty, energetic, bold, and smiling.
Part of the reason for going to visit was to have a family reunion in which I was able to enroll my cousins, some of whom I haven't seen in over fifteen years and then it was at a family wedding and they were total strangers to me, to help with the plans. The reunion was a surprise to my Mum and her two sisters, the matriarcs of the family. The experience was beautiful. Our family, who traditionally haven't been close and who have never all been together in one place ever before, were reunited. I expected not to know half the people there since some of my second cousins have been born since I have been in the USA and the others I have never acknowledged, but I did not expect to hear the rest of my family get acquainted with each other and ask who was who. We sat in the garden, the weather was uncharacteristically good, and chatted with each other. We then walked down to the beach and flew kites and anyone would have thought we were very familiar with each other. My cousin's daughter, who I last saw as a baby right before I went away to college, brought her fiance with her and he knew as many people as the rest of us, and as well, by the end of the day. We ended the day sitting in the garden, eating the last few bits of the buffet and playing silly mind games, all totally relaxed.
The phone lines were buzzing all weekend afterwards with the sisters and cousins continuing to connect and rehash the events. I am very proud of my family and now know I belong to a loving unit, which I had distanced myself from.
Yesterday morning as I was having my last cuppa tea with my Mum, she began to sob. I sat on her lap and we held each other. I realized that I had never seen my Mum cry before. She said she thought she had lost me forever as she had tried to connect with me for so long now and I had shut her out. When I got out of my own way and opened my heart, not only did I find inner peace and joy, I brought those feelings to everyone.
Thank you to everyone who stood for me along my journey and who continue to stand for me and everyone else. I am committed to making a difference in this world.
Love,
Diana
NC76
Part of the reason for going to visit was to have a family reunion in which I was able to enroll my cousins, some of whom I haven't seen in over fifteen years and then it was at a family wedding and they were total strangers to me, to help with the plans. The reunion was a surprise to my Mum and her two sisters, the matriarcs of the family. The experience was beautiful. Our family, who traditionally haven't been close and who have never all been together in one place ever before, were reunited. I expected not to know half the people there since some of my second cousins have been born since I have been in the USA and the others I have never acknowledged, but I did not expect to hear the rest of my family get acquainted with each other and ask who was who. We sat in the garden, the weather was uncharacteristically good, and chatted with each other. We then walked down to the beach and flew kites and anyone would have thought we were very familiar with each other. My cousin's daughter, who I last saw as a baby right before I went away to college, brought her fiance with her and he knew as many people as the rest of us, and as well, by the end of the day. We ended the day sitting in the garden, eating the last few bits of the buffet and playing silly mind games, all totally relaxed.
The phone lines were buzzing all weekend afterwards with the sisters and cousins continuing to connect and rehash the events. I am very proud of my family and now know I belong to a loving unit, which I had distanced myself from.
Yesterday morning as I was having my last cuppa tea with my Mum, she began to sob. I sat on her lap and we held each other. I realized that I had never seen my Mum cry before. She said she thought she had lost me forever as she had tried to connect with me for so long now and I had shut her out. When I got out of my own way and opened my heart, not only did I find inner peace and joy, I brought those feelings to everyone.
Thank you to everyone who stood for me along my journey and who continue to stand for me and everyone else. I am committed to making a difference in this world.
Love,
Diana
NC76
Diana NC76
making love happen))
making love happen))